Thank you for your dyingness

We were sitting at the table, waiting for dinner to start, when our four-year-old son surprised us with a prayer: “Thank you for your dyingness, so that you could save the world.”

It was a simple prayer, grammatically incorrect, but it warmed my heart as a mother as it showed me that he is getting something from the Bible we are currently using and from the video we watched that morning.

You see, it has not been easy for me to find a Bible that engages my children. Though my kids love reading stores, the Bible seemed to be the last book to catch on.  The first Bible we tried had pictures that were too scary, the second one had stories that were kind of boring and was not very Biblically correct. Then my mom bought a new children’s Bible for us from the bookstore at our church: “the Jesus storybook Bible” written by Sally Lloyd-Jones & illustrated by Jago. I had seen the Bible before and had been unimpressed with it’s accuracy. With our other Bible’s out of the picture, however, and with our kids being interested in “the Bible grandma bought,” I decided to give it a try.

We loved it!

With much fewer stories than many children’s Bible’s, this Bible ties all its stories together to point to Jesus and to God’s “Never Stopping, Never Giving Up, Unbreaking, Always and Forever Love” (Lloyd-Jones, 2007, p 36.). No, it doesn’t specifically stay close to scripture and it adds quite a bit at times, but it doesn’t make the stories less true. And after just having finished our Bible this morning, I am more than happy to start on our second go-through.

So why am I telling you all of this? It is not because I want to talk all of you into buying this specific story Bible, although you may feel free to give it a try. No, my reason for writing this lies deeper.

Here at Youth With A Mission, we do our work because we want to “Know God & Make Him known” and I am sure that many of you want this same thing. But no matter how important and powerful outreaches and later-life discipleship can be, we cannot forget to also disciple our own children. Yes we have Sunday school and our kids might be going to AWANA or another club, but it doesn’t take away from the precious time we could spend with our kids by just reading 1 Bible story a day from a Bible our kids can like and understand. Because our children do take away a lot from the times we spend with them. And because their views on the Bible are not just precious to us, they are the starting blocks for getting to know God more in the future.

I pray that you may all be blessed and may we all have the privilege of seeing our children grow up to love our Lord.

YWAM Utah Campus staff

Ps. The video I watched the morning of my son’s prayer was from “Buck Denver asks… What’s in the Bible?

Let there be light!

“In the beginning God created the heavens and the earth” (Genesis 1:1, NIV). This is how our Bible starts. A clear introduction, that by itself could be enough. But it doesn’t end there. This is just the beginning of the wonderful account of how God first created the world out of nothing, followed by His relentless pursuit of the human heart after we decided not to trust in Him. One concept seems especially important in this account, the concept of light:

And God said, ‘Let there be light,’ and there was light. God saw that the light was good, and he separated the light from the darkness. God called the light ‘day,’ and the darkness he called ‘night.’ And there was evening, and there was morning – the first day. (Genesis 1:3, NIV)

Light; the first thing God created. We don’t always think much about the importance of light in our lives. Usually, it is just there and, if it is not, we turn on a lamp. Around this time of the year, however, when the seasons change and we start waking up while it is still somewhat dark outside, we are reminded of the light in a way that we are not when it is more readily available.

It is also the time of the year where other things can remind us of the necessity of light as well. Halloween is coming up. Though most of us still like to celebrate this holiday, as Christian’s we are aware that Halloween is not by nature a celebration of light. While dressing up, often as darker creatures, with symbols of death abounding around us, light too begins to become more important. But this time we hope for a different type of light; a light that penetrates the darkness from the insight out.

In John 8:12 it says: “When Jesus spoke again to the people, he said, ‘I am the light of the world. Whoever follows me will never walk in darkness, but will have the light of life” (NIV). It is a wonderful promise, but it might lead us to wonder: Could this be true? Could we truly walk with Jesus in such a way that the darkness has no effect on us? And could we instead affect the darkness around us? Jesus says that this is possible and he showed it with his life. Wherever he came he brought healing, hope, and life. Could we really follow in His footsteps?

So I say to you: Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives; the one who seeks finds; and the one who knocks, the door will be opened. (Luke 11:9-10)

Ask. Ask for more of Him and seek relentlessly for His light. For it is there, all around us. From glimmers of hope in a dark situation, to the good we see in a person that we didn’t thought could have anything good going for them. Jesus is active in this world.

I challenge you this season to look for it. Look for His light, in even the darkest of situations and ask Him to use you to increase the light you see in the world around you. And though some things may remain dark around you, I pray that you may always be reminded of the light.

Update: Cancelled school & next steps

Hello everyone,

It has been a while since our last update. In the last couple of months, we have gone from promoting for the Discipleship Training School (DTS) to deciding it is not yet the time to run one here. Instead, we have been back to Idaho for our yearly staff retreat; we have been to Kansas City for the YWAM Together conference; and our family has even been to Michigan to visit a new cousin. And now, as even in Utah fall is setting in, we are waiting on God and seeing what he has for YWAM in this place.

Of course this doesn’t mean that we don’t do anything. Right now we continue to get connected; we help people whom God puts in our path; and we meet as a team to talk about vision, structure, and all the other foundational units to running a YWAM location. Without a DTS, the beginning may seem small – but we are thankful. Thankful for our God who has been so faithful through it all.

Please pray for us as we continue to walk with God and as we pursue His dreams for this place. And if you feel yourself drawn to Utah, either as a student or as staff, know that we would love to have you. We may not have a set date yet for when we hope to run our new first Discipleship Training School, but we are positive that such a date will come in the future. First, however, we would like to see more staff come and join us here. So whether you feel called to Utah, or if you are just curious and would like to ask some questions, please don’t hesitate to reach out to us. And again, even if you cannot come yourselves – your prayers are always appreciated!

YWAM Utah Campus Staff

Epic Faith – The Start of Your Journey

On August 22nd we are hoping to start our first YWAM Discipleship Training School (DTS) in Utah! The focus of the school will be on justice, mercy & compassion. Our outreach will be in Hungary and Greece and our debrief will take place in The Netherlands.

Though the starting date is coming close, there is still time to sign up and to start your 5-month journey of faith with us. In fact, if you sign up before August 1st, you will receive a free copy of the book Epic Faith – written by Marty Meyer, the pioneer leader & base director of YWAM Idaho Boise-Cascade!

So, whether you are fresh out of high school or you just retired, if you are ready for a new challenge and you want to grow in relationship with our amazing God – sign up now!

Please don’t hesitate to contact us with any questions or visit our website for more information.

We hope to see you with us in a month!

YWAM Utah Campus DTS staff

The Beauty of Duck Valley

What do you think of when you hear the words “Indian Reservation”?

Most of the time, I find myself thinking about all the bad things first – racing from experiences to images, words people have spoken, hate and curses, racism, political ideas that were once considered good, people who I have listened to who defended the use of force, and stories from people of what that use of force looked like. A whole legacy of ideas and their consequences.

Mixed throughout all of them, however, are moments of beauty.

Laughter – sweet, rich, and joyous laughter.

Kind faces that show far more hospitality than I deserve.

Story on top of story that shares of God’s unrelenting desire to pursue His loved ones.

These are the memories mixed in with everything that I remember when I hear those words – Indian Reservation. Given the lessons and wisdom that many first nations people have taught me I am indebted to them for the life in Christ that I get to live.

Duck Valley

One of the places close to my heart are the lands of the Shoshone-Paiute people. It is little place, set in the high desert of Idaho and Nevada. The hills are deceivingly tall and distant when coming from central Idaho, where the mountains are much more abrupt, as a friend and I discovered when we tried to go “just a little ways.” Though it is high desert it is also filled with water for irrigation. And yes, there are certainly a lot of ducks.

I have only been there twice – once eight years ago and the second time just a couple of weeks back.

Both were special and this last trip taught me several lessons that I’m taking to heart as we move forward in ministry.

The first was to trust God when He speaks.

I was so stressed out while trying to put things together. I didn’t have anything set up like I wanted to and it felt like I was going to run it all into the ground.

However, God worked in His ways and He led the outreach.

What does that look like?

Favor where you least expect it; divine appointments; relationships; hospitality; and sometimes just saying “yes”. Wherever there is openness to relationship there is an opportunity for God to move in and open doors.

The second was related to that – look for relationships.

Does this sound like common sense?

I mean, it probably should, but I find it so abstract at times.

God Himself relates to us relationally, we relate to others relationally, but as we step forward to move this kingdom of good relationships forward, it can seem tempting to rely on non-relational methods. I doubt that most of those methods are wrong. Though, when we employ a method in the place of relationship our testimony suffers.

An example of this came on the day I headed home from Duck Valley.

The night before, we were enjoying dinner at the local diner when one of the cooks introduced us to one of her relatives. It turns out that Duck Valley is also home to a lot of beef cattle and the annual branding is something to be invited to – and we were invited.

Now, I’ve never gone on an outreach where you could call a branding day a “method” to build relationships, but it certainly was a place of relationships, with lots of hard work, yelling, smiles, and laughter.

Jesus was also getting invited to all sorts of places.

The wedding in Cana was one such event where I’m sure there were a lot of relationships happening. He was often invited into the homes of others and when He showed up to a town it seems like his first place to stop was the home of a friend. We see Jesus focusing on places of relationship. Sometimes there is a method to open up the possibility of relationships (in our case it was baskets filled with supplies, food, and fun things for kids), but our focus needs to be on the relationships opening up – not the methods bringing an opportunity.

So what holds us back?

Is this all common sense or actually countercultural?

I know that in my life it is often countercultural to rely on others, to ask for help – to look at a very good relational moment during ministry and not weigh it in the scales of productivity.

How are we all doing at this?

Are we focussed on relationships or on the methods we are employing?

What is our first thought when we think about sharing Jesus with someone? Is it the amazing relationship that we get to introduce to another person? Is it the little relationship moment that is happening as you greet a person that has been created in the image of God?

Or is it a thought of productivity? Do we think of a system of verses, a certain way of doing it, figuring out the right angle, how long until I get to go home?

These questions might be rough, but both the good and the bad reflect my own heart – I can remember a time for each one of them.

Do we see the beauty that is right there in that person, created in God’s image; do we see the beauty that is there in that moment, a relationship that is humbling itself like Jesus humbled Himself to the point of death?

Relationship or method?

Beauty or an invitation to more beauty?

I know that my own heart will generally choose to shy away from those questions, but as God cares about us He will be the one to ask them eventually. In 2007, I attended the Discipleship Training School and God used that time to ask a lot of those questions.

If you are looking for a time to settle some of the questions I’ve included here or you have more of your own – I would like to invite you to consider that DTS. The next DTS starts on August 22nd.


I would also invite you to read more about my friends. They are a family committed to relationship and inviting others into relationship with our creator. They have taught me a lot about valuing relationships over methods.

The Red Road

Also, I am sure my friends at Cowboys With A Mission would like to share that working with cattle is a perfect time to build relationships and share the gospel.

Cowboys With A Mission

Always Praise Him!

“If you are arrested, praise God that you have not been beaten. If you have been beaten, praise God that you have not been killed. And if you have been killed, praise God that you are now with Jesus in heaven!”  

– Uzbek saying as printed in day 10 of:
The 2016 “30 days of prayer for the Muslim world”.

Today it is day 11 of Ramadan and just like last year, the first year that I personally participated in the 30 days of prayer for the Muslim world during Ramadan, it has been a blessing to read the stories and pray along during this important time on the Islamic calendar. But it has also been challenging. Examples like the statement above from Uzbeki believers help me to remember that following God isn’t always as ‘easy’ for others, as it is in our own lives. And though of course we encounter opposition in our own way, it seems like we sometimes get more easily discouraged than those who risk their lives for Jesus on a daily basis, simply by following Him.

For example: Our family just recently moved to Utah and through that process I have been challenged with this myself. We don’t face death or persecution in any way like the Uzbeks do, and yet it can seem so easy to stop praising God for what He is doing and so easy to start questioning Him and to get discouraged for that which is not yet happening instead.

I too need to remember that, no matter what is happening, our Lord is still worthy of praise and we can still praise Him. And sometimes it is in praising Him that most of our mountains get moved.

So pray for us, and praise with us, as we do ask God to move the mountains that we ourselves can’t move. We are just a small team and we don’t have what it takes to pull off the vision God has for this place – but pray that He will do it none the less. Pray for favor, pray for guidance, pray for direction and pray for courage. But above all, pray that no matter what will happen, that we will continue to praise Him.

Do you have a prayer request yourself?
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Moving to Utah

Our family gets to move into our first apartment in Utah today!

I suppose the move actually started last May, on the 22nd. That was when we took our first load of stuff from Idaho and dropped it off into storage in Utah.

Now, the movement of stuff seems like a bad way to define moving, but the experience has certainly showed me how my heart can get attached to a place, or at least the place where all my stuff is.


Well, I think its because my heart wants to control things.

Just by having stuff it can seem like disappointments can get absorbed by its mass, but this really isn’t true. It only seems to be true. A place to live can also seem like control, but its not. Rents are dependent on your ability to pay them and even if you own property you do not control the earth or its weather.

This is something that God has been using to reshape the way my heart feels and the way my mind thinks.

As we’ve been moving, I’ve read through the book of Proverbs and the one phrase that stood out the most this time around is “the fear of the Lord…”

Here’s a short list of verses where that phrase shows up – “the fear of the Lord“.

It is the beginning of wisdom and knowledge, but also in is also life and safety.

I don’t need stuff to feel less discouraged – I need the fear of the Lord, to know His way, and to know Him so that I may have life!

I don’t need to be in control – I need the fear of the Lord, to understand His way, and to understand who He is so that I can trust in His safety!

What do you notice first in Proverbs?

Whoever has ears…

“Again Jesus began to teach by the lake. The crowd that gathered around him was so large that he got into a boat and sat in it out on the lake, while all the people were along the shore at the water’s edge.” (Mark 4:1)

One of the stories that Jesus told to this big crows was the story of a farmer who went out to sow seed. Depending on where the seed fell, some bore fruit while others didn’t. When Jesus was alone with His disciples, he explained this story (or parable) to them.

“Then Jesus said to them, “Don’t you understand this parable? How then will you understand any parable?

The farmer sows the word.

Some people are like seed along the path, where the word is sown. As soon as they hear it, Satan comes and takes away the word that was sown in them.

Others, like seed sown on rocky places, hear the word and at once receive it with joy. But since they have no root, they last only a short time. When trouble or persecution comes because of the word, they quickly fall away.

Still others, like seed sown among thorns, hear the word; but the worries of this life, the deceitfulness of wealth and the desires for other things come in and choke the word, making it unfruitful.

Others, like seed sown on good soil, hear the word, accept it, and produce a crop—some thirty, some sixty, some a hundred times what was sown” (Mark 4:13-20).

This morning we talked about this story at our Bible School in Idaho. It is a story that many of us have heard, perhaps multiple times, and yet it can leave us with questions. We might look at this story from the perspective of the farmer and ask ourselves: ‘Why does he sow in places that will never bear fruit?’ Or we might ask ourselves how this teaching applies to us doing ministry.

Though these questions and perspectives are valid, we often overlook the context in which Jesus was telling this story. Jesus was talking to a multitude, so great that He had to get into a boat to address them. Though He did not explain the meaning of this story to all these people, He did tell all of them this parable. In the very immediate context therefore, we can say that these people where the different types of soils and Jesus was the farmer sowing the word among them. But He knew their hearts. He knew that even though many had come, not all of them would receive His message and bear fruit from it.

“Whoever has ears to hear, let them hear.” (Mark4:9b)

That is how Jesus ends his parable for this multitude.  And though we know the explanation of the four soils, while the multitude did not, perhaps this is a challenge for us as well. Where are we at? Are we troubled by the things that come against us? Or are we taken up by everything life has to offer? If so, just be careful that it doesn’t overtake the work that God has been doing in your life.

I know it can be easy to loose heart or to get distracted. Let’s make sure that we try to be there for each other and pray that God will continue to bring our minds and our hearts back to Him no matter what is going on in our lives.

To God be the Glory!

The birth of a King

With Christmas, we celebrate the birth of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ; a story that captures the heart even of many people who otherwise don’t belief in, or don’t follow, God and Jesus. But the Christmas story wasn’t just a cute story about a baby. Though new life is often celebrated, Jesus’ birth went unnoticed by many. Yes, God sent his angels to announce the birth of His Son to shepherd’s who were watching over their sheep in a field near Bethlehem. He also sent a star to announce Jesus’ birth to wise men from the East. But of His own people, it seems only 1 old man named Simeon, and 1 old woman named Anna, realized who this little baby was, without being told so by angels.

But when Jesus talks about His birth, it isn’t in the same jolly atmosphere we often associate with the Christmas holidays. Jesus talks about His coming from quite a different perspective.


Luke 20:9-15 “He (Jesus) went on to tell the people this parable: ‘A man planted a vineyard, rented it to some farmers and went away for a long time. At harvest time he sent a servant to the tenants so they would give him some of the fruit of the vineyard. But the tenants beat him and sent him away empty-handed. He sent another servant, but that one also they beat and treated shamefully and sent away empty-handed. He sent still a third, and they wounded him and threw him out.

Then the owner of the vineyard said, “What shall I do? I will send my son, whom I love; perhaps they will respect him.”

But when the tenants saw him, they talked the matter over. “This is the heir,” they said. “Let’s kill him, and the inheritance will be ours.” So they threw him out of the vineyard and killed him'”  (NIV, 2011).


Jesus is the heir who was sent to this earth to be killed. His birth was followed by death Mat 2:16; His life would be a stumbling block for many and would cause pain to His mother’s heart Luke 2:34-35. Though He came to “bind up the brokenhearted” and to “set the captives free” Isaiah 61, His own life, was one of suffering (NIV, 2011).

And that is whose birth we may celebrate again in the next couple of days. The birth of a Savior; the birth of a King.

God bless you all as you remember His birth and celebrate this precious life that was given to us. May God be with you all, and may He continue to guide you and bless you as you start the new year of 2016.

NIV, 2011. Holy Bible, New International Version. Retrieved from

“Intentional Living” & Love your neighbor as yourself.

“If you want to be successful, you need to every day: value people, belief in people & unconditionally love people. If you do these three things every day, you will not only be successful in life, but you will have a life of significance.” – Advice John C. Maxwell got from his dad.

As I was listening to a broadcast on his book “Intentional Living” by John C. Maxwell, it was this advice that stood out to me most. We all want to live a life of significance. But though this advice seems simple enough, I know from my own life that it can be very hard to do all of these things every day. Some days we are too busy, at others too resentful, too lazy, too … Whatever it is, there can be a lot of things standing in our way of truly valuing people, believing in them and loving them unconditionally.

Yet, this is exactly what God does for us every single day, and He too has asked us to do so for others, though with slightly different words.

“Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength and with all you mind; and, ‘Love your neighbor as yourself,’” is the correct summary of the law the law-expert gives to Jesus in Luke 10:27.

Our love for others flows from the love we have for God, and out of the love that He has shown us. By reading the Bible, we can be reminded of this. But the Bible also challenges us to love people who we may rather not “value, belief in & love unconditionally.”


One specific group that God calls the Israelites to love is foreigners living among them.

Deuteronomy 10:19 says: “And you are to love those who are foreigners, for you yourselves were foreigners in Egypt.” Even more, Leviticus 19:34 says: “The foreigner residing among you must be treated as native-born. Love them as yourself, for you were foreigners in Egypt. I am the Lord your God.”

This must not have been an easy task for the Israelites, even at the time that God spoke these words to them and it became more severely tested in the time that the Samaritan’s lived among them. The Samaritan’s were Israel’s natural enemies. And yet, when the expert of the law asks Jesus “who is my neighbor,” in Luke 10: 29b, Jesus answers in the form of a story that shows the Samaritan’s are indeed to be loved as their neighbors. (Luke 10:25-37 – The Parable of the Good Samaritan)

Who are your neighbors? Who are our neighbors? Have we justified anyone to be excluded from God’s command to love others as ourselves? Perhaps someone who has wronged us? Or perhaps, like the Israelites in Jesus time, we have a hard time loving the foreigners that seek refuge in our country?

Whatever it is, God can help us. He is an expert in loving those who hated Him. He even died for them. And on Christmas, we again celebrate the fact that Jesus came to live with those who loved and with those who hated Him; calling all of them back to the Love of the Father. Who can we share this news with this Holiday season? Who can we value, belief in & love in ways that we may never have before?

Ask God to challenge you. And I am sure that you will find both value and significance. Good luck!